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Food. You can’t live without it. It’s not like the old saying, “you can’t live with ’em; you can’t live without ’em.” Although, I must say I wouldn’t want to live without my man! He loves me unconditionally. He’s loved me at my lightest and he loves me at my heaviest. But unlike men, you can’t live without food. So in that respect, food is a friend. But for some (like me) it can turn into a foe. It’s not really an obsession but oh how I love to eat good food. I have my weaknesses like anyone else but if I had to pinpoint one or two foods, I really don’t know what I would choose. I love the obvious like pizza and chocolate but I can live without both for extended periods of time. So why can’t I do that with all foods?
Some people are happy in their large bodies. And that’s ok. But I’m not one of them. I actually kind of envy big girls that are comfortable in their own skin. I’ve been at weights before where I thought I was fat (and I probably was) and I would love to be there right now. But I know when I get there (and I will get there), it won’t be enough. I know this because I know me.
I’ve tried every diet there is to try. The cabbage diet. The banana diet. Counting calories. Counting fat. The diabetic diet. Sugar Busters. The high protein/low carb diet. Weight Watchers. Herbal Life. Nutrisystem. Arbonne. Slim Fast. Visalus. Plexus. Essential Oils. I’m sure I could think of more but I think you get the idea. Some worked great! Some not at all. But there’s been one constant thing that hasn’t changed for as long as I can remember. I’m exhausted all the time. I wake up tired and could take a nap by 10:00am. By 5:00pm I’m physically and mentally exhausted. I don’t want to do anything but go home and fall on the couch until 10:00pm when I can go to bed. I would go at 9:00 but my husband says we’re not old enough for that yet. I’ve been telling doctors for years but they always blame it on my weight or weight related issues such as sleep apnea (which I was eventually cleared of once I was put on a daily inhaler). Even when I weighed the least at 135, I was tired so what gives? I will say I felt better at 135 than I had in years but the fatigue was still there.
I would live with it for a while and ask again but always the same answer. It’s your weight. So I recently started searching for a new doctor. One that would think out of the box and not try to blame everything on my weight. I found an Integrative Health practice and I’ve only been going there for a couple of months but she’s already discovered that my cortisol was low and I tested positive for some food allergies. But medication for low cortisol is not helping so it’s really got me wondering about food. There’s a couple more tests I can do but insurance doesn’t cover it so I’m going to see how this food thing goes first.
That brings me to the purpose of this blog and my journey. Like I said above, I know me. I have the motivation to get started but I know when things get hard, I will be tempted to “cheat”. That’s usually the way it goes for me. There’s always a reason or an occasion. So I’m starting my journey today. Christmas day. I’m going to start talking about my journey before it even starts on January 2nd, 2017. It’s for me to reflect and a way to hold myself accountable and it will get me more motivated and ready. This isn’t for anyone but me. If you’re reading this and it helps you get motivated, awesome! I would love to hear from you. And advice is great but negativity and criticism are not. So don’t go there.
I’ll start preparing for my journey tomorrow by going over my “food allergies” and the diet (and meal plans) I’ve chosen to follow come January 2nd.
Merry Christmas and Happy Hanukkah!
So I made the switch to the ketogenic diet. The appeal of losing more weight at a faster rate was just too much to resist. Plus, it says it will help get rid of my acid reflux and other health benefits. My doctor said 5 pounds a month was very good but as hard as I’ve worked at it, it wasn’t good enough for me. I’ve been doing this about a week now and when I weighed this morning, I had lost another 2.4 pounds. To say I’m excited and motivated is an understatement.
The side effects haven’t been fun but really it’s only been the headaches that get to me. I didn’t have one today and I’m still in ketosis so my body must be adjusting finally. I enjoy the variety and not having to analyze everything I eat. I do feel kind of weird though when I eat something that was tabu before (like soy in mayo).
I found an app to help me keep track of everything and help me determine how much of everything I should be getting. With this diet, it’s about high fat, moderate protein and low carbs. It’s hard to get it to even out by the end of the day though. From everything I’ve read, the ultimate goal is to get the fat but don’t worry about the protein and watch the carbs.
My visit to the doctor was ok. She wants to test me for heavy metals. You have to collect your urine for 6-8 hours and then send it off so I’ll have to do it on Sunday when I will be home all day. After that, if my fatigue isn’t any better, she wants to do UBI therapy (Ultraviolet Blood Irradiation). It’s a procedure that exposes the blood to light to heighten the body’s immune response and to kill infections. The drawback is that it’s $100 per treatment and she said it would take about 10 treatments. I’m praying for a windfall soon!
I’ve been taking vinegar for a few days now and I am starting to see my heartburn improving. The last time I took my Prilosec was Friday night and I’m not dying yet. I’ve figured out the perfect concoction and it’s really good. It’s Arbonne tea with 1 tsp of honey, 2 or 3 drops of Lemon Essential Oil and 1 Tbl of apple cider vinegar. Plain water works just as well but I like that the tea offers other benefits. My husband is even drinking it. Of course, it could also be the Di Gize Essential Oil that I started using yesterday. I just rub it on my belly. Either way, I’ll keep doing both. It doesn’t matter to me and neither is hurting me so it’s a win/win.
I weigh tomorrow and not expecting a loss. There may even be a small gain. I weighed Monday and had gained 2 lbs. We went on a ride to Chattanooga on Saturday and ate at a buffet and I’m afraid I succumbed to the fried green tomatoes and fried okra. Oh, and the chicken finger. There just wasn’t that much there that wasn’t fried or breaded in some way and hunger got the best of me. As long as I don’t continue along that slippery path, I’m ok with an occasional slip.
Possible tornadoes here in Alabama tomorrow. Please say a prayer that it doesn’t get that bad!
I took a break from writing…actually, I have still been writing but just not posting it publicly. It was so hard to come up with a topic every night and to fill this page with something that I thought someone might give a hoot about. I’ve said from the beginning that this blog was for me and I really didn’t have the intention of being a big time blogger with thousands of subscribers. But it was always in the back of my mind that someone might be reading it and thinking to themselves how boring it is. I talk about how bad I feel or how tired I am and then I describe what I ate that day.
So, I decided to go dark. I’ve been writing for just me (when I did it). No worries about anybody or anything. It’s a paragraph or 2 and I’m done. The problem is, I did it a couple of times and then forgot and have missed a couple of days. I don’t want to drop it completely because I can go back and look at what I’ve eaten or maybe when I started complaining about a headache. I don’t know. Good reasons to keep doing it and lazy ones not to.
On another subject, I’ve been toying with the idea of switching to a ketogenic diet. The fatigue is not getting any better, at all! Plus the heartburn is killing me. So I googled it and I found the ketogenic diet could help with both. Actually, you get varying opinions, depending on who wrote the article. So I may just wait until I got to the doctor next Friday and ask her what she thinks. I lost 2.7 pounds this week so Paleo is working for me as far as weight loss but just not the fatigue and heartburn. Surely there is something out there that will work. I also think that maybe changing it up would help confuse my system.
Another 2.7 puts me at about 18.something down since January. Add that to the 10 I lost at the end of ’16 and that is almost 30 lbs since I’ve started going to my new doctor and trying to get healthy. I measured and no inches have been lost since the first of March.
Here’s my food for the day. Breakfast was bacon. I had boiled eggs but I couldn’t peel them for anything. I finally gave up. For lunch I had leftovers from Monday night bunko. It was roast, potatoes, carrots, and onions. I also had green beans and squash. For supper we went out to eat at Outback. I got the steak, a sweet potato and asparagus. I also had a kombucha and vodka. Kombucha is something I would have to give up if I go on the keto diet. One serving has like 7 grams of carbs!
I’ll be deciding whether to change diets. Until then…
I hate to complain. I really do. But I’m so tired. And I’m tired of being tired. I feel like I’m doing everything I can do to figure it out and to reverse it but nothing seems to be working yet. I’m tired of writing this blog too. It’s so draining to have to figure out what I need to journal about. I’m either tired or have heartburn. The only good I can find from it is that I was able to look up and see when the last time was that I took my Prilosec. Sad thing is, it was just yesterday and I didn’t remember that. I suppose exhaustion does that.
Today I had the fritata again but this time I ate it with salsa. It was a lot better that way. Lunch was leftover tuna salad on the paleo bread I bought the other day. Tonight we had our HOG meet & eat. We went to Habaneros Mexican Restaurant. I shared fajitas with Gary. I’m really amazed that I don’t miss chips and salsa or cheese dip. The margarita either. I took some kombucha with me and ordered a shot of vodka and I was all set.
That’s it. That’s all I’ve got.
Still no heartburn today. A little indigestion but that was it. Another headache though. It was a payroll day though so it really could have been stress this time. I caught it in time by taking some Excedrin. Plus when I weighed this morning I had gained .4 lbs. Not a lot but still. It’s probably the paleo friendly cupcakes.
I had the breakfast fritata today. Really a big letdown. I mean, it was ok, but I think I worked myself up for it that it just wasn’t what I expected. It’s times like this I miss cheese. I heated it up in the microwave though. I’ll try the toaster oven tomorrow and see if that makes a difference. At least it was something besides bacon and eggs!!
I went to Organic Harvest for lunch and got roasted potatoes, steak with peppers and onions and wilted kale. It’s gotten to where meat just doesn’t float my boat. I asked friends on Facebook if anyone had experienced this before and I was surprised at the number of people that said that. It’s either too tough, too dry or it grosses me out. Tonight we had meatloaf, asparagus and mashed potatoes. The asparagus was crispy, just like I like it. The meatloaf wasn’t as good as it usually is. When you can’t use crackers or oatmeal and ketchup, it’s understandable but there’s nothing like a good meatloaf. Maybe this is just another meat that disappoints. My search for good tasting meat will continue.
Yippee! I took my Prilosec this morning and my heartburn has not reappeared all day. Words can’t describe how happy that makes me. I just hope it lasts.
I did get a horrible headache today though. I haven’t had one that bad in a really long time. Not just for no reason anyway. After lunch it started hurting and just kept getting worse and worse. I finally took some Excedrin and put the microwavable neck wrap on and it eased up. Then I just felt like I had a headache hangover.
I picked up my food today that I ordered from Consider it Joy Baking. I got some ranch dressing (which doesn’t taste like ranch at all), paleo bread and a fritata. I also picked up a bento for lunch. It wasn’t bad but I didn’t enjoy the chicken salad as much as I hoped.
Breakfast today was bacon and scrambled eggs. (looking forward to that fritata tomorrow) Lunch was the bento box with chicken salad, fruit, plantain chips with salsa and mixed nuts with some sort of seasoning on them. Those I liked. I also got 4 chocolate paleo cupcakes. Those were definitely good! I only ate one though. I gave one to a lady I work with that is celiac and another to a guy that is diabetic. I still have one though! 🙂 Supper was some tuna salad with the paleo bread.
Hump day tomorow and weigh in! Fingers crossed!!
Day 4 and heartburn is not going away. If I can just hold out until tomorrow when I will take my Prilosec. I just hope I’m doing the right thing by waiting. I worry that I’m making matters worse. I just don’t understand it. I was doing so good and having very little heartburn between pills. It was so bad this morning, I decided to only eat sweet potato fries for lunch. I also ate 1/2 of a banana because I read that is good for getting rid of heartburn. I drank some kombucha too and I was fine all afternoon. So much so that I decided I would stick with sweet potato fries again tonight. Yet, it’s back and with a vengeance.
I’ve been eating the homemade breakfast sausage that I made and I’m wondering if that has something to do with it. Maybe there’s something in it that is causing the burn. I’m laying off of it tomorrow and will see.
I go to the doctor on April 7. That’s 3 weeks from now. I hope this doesn’t continue because I don’t think I can wait 3 weeks to ask if this is normal or what I’m doing wrong.
Not much else on my mind tonight. It’s hard to think or reflect when you hurt so bad.